jinx6179

Okay….truth be told…..i’m struggling here lately. Its not really noticeable because i’m holding things together……barely. Even with my wonderful results i’m struggling with motivation here lately. Is it because i’ve been doing this for over a year? Is it because its the holidays and i just want to let loose? Is it because its cold outside and i just want to snuggle someplace warm ? What is it exactly?? I don’t know….I’m still keeping close to my calorie count with just a few minor slip ups. I’ve had to literally grab myself by the bootstraps and throw myself out the door for a run. **sigh** just feel lazy. Now i know I can compensate when my food calorie count is running high well then exercise a little more. Feeling lazy cut back on the calories simple right?? But what if both food and exercise are off??One of my greatest fears is backsliding. I  know it happens but God i don’t want to go back the way i was. I tried so hard to only make changes i thought i could live with. So, why am i struggling now??? I’ve been thinking of changing things up a little. Maybe only stepping on the scale once a week instead of everyday but that scares me too. I’ve been thinking of eating only when i’m hungry instead of insisting on three meals a day. I’ve been thinking of loosening up the reins a little bit after a year. Any thoughts on this would be appreciated. Ofcourse if the scale started to go back up i could nip it in the bud and get back under my tight control of calories and exercise…..thoughtsss????  

Well thats one holiday behind me! Made a total pig out of myself. Still so full not going to have breakfast this morning. Maybe later in the morning.  I ate everything i could possible want. Had a piece of pumpkin turtle pie and apple pie with whipped cream. Did drink diet soda…….go figure. But i have this ‘thing’ about not drinking my calories.  I ate way, way too much. But i feel satisfied. I thought i might have trouble stopping today and getting back on the wagon but really i don’t feel that way. We will have to see how the day plays out but i just feel Satisfied and thats really what i was looking for on Thanksgiving. I wanted to have all the things i would normally deny myself and boy did i!   I’m not even getting on the scale for a few days. No reason to discourage myself. Wait a few days  …..maybe the weekend ….of being back on plan and then see what the real damage is. Ahhh time to get ready for work……I work retail…….don’t you just LOVE black Friday!? Uuuggghhhh!!!!!!!!!!!! All those crazy people. At least i should only have to work five hours. Bye for now! Deb

I have a love affair with peanut butter and crackers…………….it is so sabotaging my weightloss efforts.  If it wasn’t for them i KNOW i would be below 180 by now! Instead i keep flucuating between 181-184. AAAraarrrgghh!!!!!I just love the sweetness and the texture. UUUugh….Must stop!  Other than that food has been going well. Sticking to 1500-1600 calories a day. I’ve been playing in the 180’s for a couple of months now. Not happy about it but at the same time i’m not too upset about it. To have lost almost 70 pounds in a year is pretty awesome. Its okay if i hang out here for a while before i try to lose more. Really if i can just maintain through the holidays i’ll be doing good i think. I plan on eating on Thanksgiving. Not way overboard.  But i’m gonna have a little bit of everything i want. A piece of pumpkin pie etc….I have the rest of the year to watch what i eat. :)